"There can be miracles, when you believe." A miracle is a miracle. Love and blessings abound. I can say that I am truly blessed. God loves me so much that He let me experienced hardships. He let me bore so much pain. He let me broke my heart and torn into pieces.
There was a time, I felt worthless. I was like a person who has taken away her dream. I felt helpless. I had to do things against my will. The most fearful thing I had never imagined. I stopped being a student.
I thought of responsibility... responsibility of helping my family financially. I worked hard and yet was not enough. I worked as a sales representative. I knocked every house just to earn money for my sister's tuition fee. Under the heat of the sun, with the dust clinging to my skin I endured it just to earn hundreds.
Three years in that company was not a good thing. One friend of mine thought of my future so he helped me to leave the Philippines. But who have thought that being a domestic helper was the solution just to escape the reality of being a sales agent (one day millionaire). I left with a heavy heart in a second time around.
I went to Saudi Arabia with the hopes of saving money for my family. I love my family so much that I will do everything for them. Working in faraway kingdom was very hard. Every night was terrible. I always cry. But even I cried as hard as I could, nothing changed. I was a domestic helper who just earned ten thousand pesos. I wanted to give up. I told to myself, this was not the thing I wanted for my life. My mind wanted to give up. My body weakened and even my tear duct wanted to surrender. Every night I talked to God and ask why? But I never listened to Him.
I went home with my mind full of whys. I went home with nothing at all only the hope of changing everything for my family. I became bum for a month. But I can’t help thinking to help my family again. Just to earn money, I worked as production operator for six months. I worked with different personalities of different ages. It's challenging though it was not that I wanted.
As I looked back with my six years of becoming a different person, I realized things. You cannot always get what you wanted. It is God’s that will happen. God wanted me to start from the lowest. He wanted to show me the different faces of life. He wanted me to go through molding process to prepare for a greater purpose. Everything happened to me was a miracle. Then that was the time I became a student again.
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