Rejection keeps on bothering me but should not

"Marami ka pa kakainin bigas"...

Wow, relatable quote for me these days... Sa dami ng mga ginagawa ko, kulang pa... I've been experiencing a lot of rejections lately... I've been receiving below-the-belt remarks. And guess what, there were times na aabot na ako sa puntong natatanong ko, ano nga ba worth ko?

But then I realized, there are just some everyone's standards. And mine perhaps does not meet their standards. Well, still, it does not mean to stop right and there and accept those things and let myself demotivated.

Haha. I admit that I let myself drown in loneliness and frustration for the past weeks and that sums up why I had to rush to the hospital and took my hydro cortisone shot.

I just told myself after I went back home that these rejections are just redirecting me to something meaningful... Who knows, di ba? Once I gave up, wala ding mangyayari. Ako lang ang talo. A friend told me that my determination led me to where I am now. Bakit ko hahayaang mawala na naman ako? I was once a lost sheep and I don't want to become one again.

Why should I let them define my worth? So what, kung they keep on rejecting me? Kung ayaw nila sa akin? "Di 'wag. I am their loss but they are not my loss.

Those places may not be the place for me. But I know, if not soon, someday I will be in a niche designed for me.